God is teaching me a lesson on being content. He proved that to me when i opened up my bible yesterday to Galatians 6:4-5.
it says "Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, for each one should carry his own load."
"Why are you comparing yourself to someone else?" He asked. and i knew immediately what he meant.
if there's one thing in this world that i want right now, it's a house. a house that is ours that we can settle into and make our own. something we fix up and turn into a home.
our apartment is nice but it's not a house. each time another friend posts a picture of themselves on facebook outside of a gorgeous house holding a sold side, i fill up with a little more jealousy. a horrid jealousy that eats at my soul.
coveting is not becoming on me. it wears on my heart for hours, making me cranky and bitter.
why am i not living in this season? it was a duh, hit-myself-on-the-forehead, moment. this is where God wants me right now! in this small apartment, that someone else maintains (for the most part), so that i can share His ministry with 120 children. because if i were spending my time, money, and energy on purchasing and fixing up a house, i couldn't be serving Him in this outreach program.
God has given me all i need. and i trust that He always will.